My husband came home last night after his weekend with friends. Each year the four of them take the holiday week end to go up to the cabin and spend some time together and fish. He came home early and said that he needed to talk to me. After so many years together I knew from the look on his face the conversation was not going to be a good one.
He began by apologizing for what he had been saying and doing over the past two years. His intent with all the crazy things he was saying was he thought with my love for God I would ask for a divorce. But instead we have lived through much pain and tears. He never would have believed I would continue in the marriage with him doing and acting in ways that were against my beliefs.
He wants out of the marriage but did not have the courage to just say so. He no longer loves me and hasn’t for sometime now. He then tells me he is in love with one of the girls that works in the office across the hall from his. The week end trips he has been taking with friends from out of town have been with her.
He packed two bags and then he left. I don’t even remember what I said to him as he walked out the door.
I called my pastor’s wife and she came over. She stayed with me all night and left this morning around 9:00.
Right now I am in deep pain and do not know what to do. I feel God has failed me and that my whole life has been one big lie. I called my boss and told her I couldn’t come in today. She told me to take the next week off.
How could I have been so blind? Why was I so trusting? Where did I go wrong? How am I going to start my life over at 54?
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God hasn't failed. You haven't failed. Stand up. Every morning's a new start. Each day is full of blessings, riches--small miracles you've missed in the midst of struggle. Your boss and your pastor's wife are two of them.
ReplyDeleteConsult an attorney right now. He's been planning this a long time. Stand up. God is the only source of truth and strength. And God IS love.
I don't think it's an accident that I found your blog today. I want to invite you to join me and others around our age on a site called Transformation.com. Look for MickyO. I feel your pain. I understand it well. You aren't alone. I hope you are still checking this blog. All the best, Micky
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